probation

ok, my last post i was happy cuz i had found those lyrics and i was having a somewhat good day. could that last, no. now im on probation, i can only go to inks blogs and mine, (sorry everyone), im getting invited to boarding schools which is a long complicated story that ill tell later, and since im getting invited to boarding schools my parents are having cram for this enterance test, i cannot sleep even though im taking meds so im like a walking zombie, i have hit an all time depression low, and i cant tell you the full extent to which i am screwed up cuz my parents (the control freaks) read everything i post, im falling apart,i dont know what im saying and i just feel really .... .... upset, to put it mildly.
sorry for the ranting and falling apart and junk, ill feel better next week. feel free to ignore every thing ive just said, its totally meaning less. im gonna go hide in my room, burn incense, and listen to music. hope you guys are having a better week, day, life then i am.
love you guys *hugs*
elfy